Losing My Religion

Losing my religion

Posted by Matutay on Nov 23, '08

A lot of times I was asked, "Are you an atheist?". I'm glad for those who bothered to ask and I feel sorry for those who assumed. Yes, I am NOT an atheist but that's not to say that I am some fanatic theist. Conventional religion repulses me and it's ironic since I've spent almost 3/4 of my life on Catholic Schools. I do believe in a Higher Power, on something that binds all living things together. I believe I surpass the standards of Biology----- that I am merely a highly evolved animal. I have instilled in me that I am much more than flesh and blood that will eventually wither. I have mind. I have soul, I have choices and definitely, I'm living more than breathing, a life. When Albert Einstein said, "The more I discover the universe, the more I believe in a Higher Power" I was even more convinced that being intelligent does not mean monopolizing knowledge. It's more like a discovery and realization of what is surreal.

However, having said all that, I refuse to become a member of a certain religion. I don't necessary believe that a bearded image of man is really what He looks like. I believe that the priests and the Catholic Church for that matter should not have a stand on Family Planning. Here's why, first and foremost they have not experienced building their own family [because they can't marry]. Secondly, if they don't even have their own family, what do they know about the hardships of raising one? [And that is not to claim that I do, but come on!] What they do is the same old propaganda that they will not let you take communion if you take the side against the church.

I am even repulsed by the idea that most of these religious institutions are if not exempted, they get the lowest tax expenses, and still, their glorious private Schools kept increasing their tuition fees . Is religion a business? That's how I see it form there. And if religions are to increase your humanity, then why is it that if you're separated, you are not allowed to take communion [there we go with communion again] and that if you're an illegitimate child, you are not exactly welcome to enroll on those conventional religious-based schools.

Anyhow, granted that I respect those who would like to stay and believe in Allah, Yahweh, Jesus Christ or Buddha, I am not going to be told that theirs is the only way to heaven or salvation for that matter. It isn't as if salvation has a franchise. If there is, I might as well book a ticket to heaven so that I can secure a meeting with Saint Peter. I just can't stand people who pray just to win on a lottery, on a game show or on a search for 'miss' and 'mister' whatever. They are outright obtuse to think of God who would be more like a fairy-god-mother. I also can't stand people or religious groups who fronts gatherings as a concert and then the next thing you would know, they'll convince you to have a life coach. What the? A life coach? Yes, such creatures existed. They would actually tell you that you are going on a concert, but they would not tell you what KIND of concert you are going in to. If you refuse to be 'life-coached', they'll assume that you have some kind of a past na pang-MMK or a dysfunctional family. F.Y.I., all families are dysfunctional. It's called 'normal' (I got that from Jessica Zafra..haha). It's like biting on a bait for an Oprah mode. I'd glady do so, if I were in Oprah.. *cynical laugh*..